I'm trying to stay positive and motivated but that's such a hard thing to do, especially when I have a to-do list three miles long, and it seems like I have three minutes to get everything done. Not to mention there's snow on the ground and I'm freezing my butt off.
BUT, instead of complaining, I'm going to be thankful that I am alive and well, I'll be thankful that I'm here getting a college education, and most of all, I'm thankful for coffee to keep me going.
Today is going to be a long day, folks.
To energize me for this long day, I ate a bowl of strawberry yogurt with granola, half of a grapefruit, and some coffee this morning for breakfast. Seeings how it's only 10:16 AM, I'm feeling really very good. Against my better judgment, I'm going to eat in the cafeteria today to test my willpower and exercise my Tiny Tuesday Challenge. I never get to eat with my friends in the cafeteria because I always succumb to eating unhealthily in there, so instead of eating a salad downstairs, by myself, again, I'm going to buck up, and show my determination.
This is my lunch plan: grab a glass of water, and walk around the Caf to scope out my healthy choices and weeding out my unhealthy choices. I'm going to take that glass of water back to my table, and sit there and drink it for about 10 minutes. Then I will get up and grab one plate, and fill it with my healthy meal (but less, to fulfill my smaller portions objective). I will sit down and slowly eat my meal. I'll be recording this meal with pictures, and I'll be back later to tell you of my successes! *SO much optimism, I love it:)
This is a really good motivator. Over half of my battle with weight loss is a mental thing--so making these my mantras, DEFINITELY going to help.
11:00PM
I know, I know...I should be sleeping right now. But I have to blog first:) Weigh in + measurements are tomorrow and I'm super excited/nervous. If I'm not making progress instantaneously since I've gotten back on the health horse, I'm not going to let it bring me down. I know, from the summer, that it takes a lot of work, dedication, and motivation to lose weight, but I know I'm back in the mindset where there is nothing I want more. There's no way I'm going to look back on my photos in Argentina (By the way, I'm hopefully going to Argentina next spring, guys!) and regret it because I look disgusting in all of my pictures. Heck no. I'm going to wear cute Argentinian clothes and bikinis, and I'm going to feel AH-mazing.
Anyway-back on task. So at lunch today I did exactly what I said I was going to do, and ended up eating a corned beef sandwich on rye with a ton of green beans. And lots of water. For dinner, I had some soup, and unfortunately went a little over board with the fruit smiles. I haven't yet got the skill down of only eating when I'm hungry and not just as a fidgety action.
Fortunately, I kept my word that I was going to work out!
I ran a mile, did sit ups, side crunches, Russian twists, push-ups, squats, and lunges. I need to do some research on more effective workouts that will give me better results. But for now, I'm satisfied.
Here's some post work-out love for you all:) You know what they say, if you look pretty after a workout, you didn't do it right!
Last of all I want to give an update on how I'm feeling about myself. I'd say when clothes are adequately covering the body, and make-up is applied, and my hair is done, I generally feel very self-confident. Basically, I feel pretty.
It's a whole different story when I wear a shirt or pants that's just a little bit too tight, or when I have no clothes on at all. And that's the whole battle. What I want to achieve in the end is feeling great about my natural body. No clothes or sucker-inner things to alter how my body looks. I want to stand completely nude in front of a mirror and not want to look away. I know I can get there. And I can almost feel sort of confident about standing in front of a mirror in sweat pants and a sports bra.
Not quite though.
When I want something, I work until I get it. And that's what's going to happen here. Go hard or go home<3
ONE MORE THING then I promise to go to bed:
I just wanted to thank everyone who reads my blog and supports me through this journey. Weight loss is not an easy thing for anyone, so I hope that, in the end, not only will I achieve my goals, but I help others to realize that those goals are closer than you think. It's difficult to post pictures of my body, and display my eating habits (bad and good) for everyone to see. But it keeps me honest with myself. And as kind of a disclaimer: I do NOT think I am FAT. I have fat. My weight does not define me, and neither does yours define you. It doesn't matter what size you are as long as you love you♥
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